"I can't control other people's actions. I can't control what other people do.....I can't control other people's actions. I can't control what other people do.....I can't control other people's actions. I can't control what other people do.....I can't control other people's actions. I can't control what other people do."
This has been my mantra the past couple of weeks. With deep breaths in a dark room. This mantra came to me after a moment of self-realization and/or actualization.
I am totally one of those people that will stand in front of another person, I like to soften the blow for everyone else around me. This could be viewed as a very nice thing, a very selfless thing. In a sense it makes me the "Protector." I don't like to see people's feelings getting hurt, or one person mad at another person. At all times I am on alert to stop all and every confrontations. But in the process of making sure everyone else is happy I forget a very important thing, making sure I am happy.
A-Ha! a lightbulb moment.
I love light bulb moments and I hate light bulb moments. I love them because I totally figure something out about myself. I hate them because it's all just words. Finding the motive to put these moments into action is the hard part. I hate hard.
I have no idea how to stop being the protector. I realize with my all my heart I have to take a step back, to stop standing in front of those I love and start standing beside them. I need to realize I can't make others happy and I most certainly can not control other people's actions. I can't control what other people do.
It's all smart and good. And it feel good to say it to myself. I shall work on it, baby steps.
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