Thursday, January 27, 2011


I grouchy and crotchety and mean. 
I am spread thin these days and some days I can bearly keep my head above.  And I hate it.  It will get better, that's what I keep saying.  This has been my mantra.  "It will get better.  It will get better.  It will get better."

Some days I am so down on myself that I can't even function as a normal person.  I know what and when things need to be done, but I don't have the motivation to do them.  I give up and then I am consumed with guilt that I gave in.  I curse my conscience.  I would like to meet the people who give it all up, and in, and ask how they did it without the guilt eating them up inside.  Must be nice.

At this time in two weeks it will be better and I a lot of  the stress will be gone.  But till then keep my sanity in your thoughts and prayers.

1 comment:

  1. Oh, Susan, I'm feeling the same way lately. I have no motivation for most of the things I need to get done. I just don't care about them. I don't know what's wrong exactly. I don't think I'm depressed, but I just want to sit around and watch Veronica Mars on netflix. I don't even mind playing with my kids--it's all those other people out there who expect things from me. I want them all to just leave me the hell alone.

    Is that terrible?


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