Wednesday, December 29, 2021

12.29.21


How I wish I had something good to report 
But she is gone
And I am sad. 
That is all that needs to be said.


Sunday, December 5, 2021

12.5

 

My earth sign is fire.
I often wonder if I should put stock
In the idea of signs and stars
And how the planets align
But when I come to the water
My body calms
I can breathe 
Water soothes
These moments I believe
The opposites of earth 
Bring peace to our souls.

Saturday, November 27, 2021

11.27

 Holding on to the good

Even if moments bring us down

Fortunate to be in a good place 

And trying to hold up those

Who aren't so lucky.

Tuesday, November 23, 2021

11.23

 Challenges

I keep singing that song tonight.

They are good.

It's a shot at putting the past behind

Starting fresh

Letting go of hurts

And becoming something

You always wanted to become.

Monday, November 22, 2021

11-22

 The waiting is the hardest part

The not knowing

The fear of rejection

Jumping into something new

Letting go

And being vulnerable 

Trying to let go

Of the worry

Tuesday, November 2, 2021

11.2

 

There is a little bit more confidence in where I stand

A pride.

But a fear

That this too can be fleeting

Not so confident after all.

I took a walk and felt relief. Breathing in the last of a season that had so many ups and downs. There is a solid ground.  I pray to keep this balance.


Friday, October 22, 2021

10.22

 



I wake before the sun
And sleep after the first star awakens
This is where I want to be
Amongst the frost
The barren trees
Life is on pause
But it still goes on.


Monday, October 18, 2021

10.18

 



These full circle moments lend themselves to me.
I am the witness and the executor.
All the battles, the tears, the losses.
We have come to the other side.
We break bread at a table and share his memory.
We absorb the music on the floor of her room.
We enjoy our company and share dreams.
Oh if I could stay in this space forever.
This full circle will surround me 
And make me whole again.

Sunday, October 17, 2021

10.17


I find myself here from time to time
The stillness surronds 
and there is a quiet
To see who once was a
Son of
Daughter of
Husband of
Wife of.

Some stones glisten, a sign of care and newness
Then the stones that can't be read
Stone wore smooth from the wind and rain
but ultimitaly a consequnece of the time.
All of it a consequence of time.

A guilt can wash over
No one here belongs to me
And I belong to no one.
but somehow I believe
that just a whisper of a name
somehow gives life again.



 

Wednesday, October 13, 2021

10.13

 I was wondering when it will all come to pass

There is a lesson in this

Or maybe two or three

And once I think I understand

I doubt myself

It easier to joke and make fun of

The fate life has thrown. 

Acceptance seems like a bargain

I am not willing to accept.


Tuesday, October 12, 2021

10.12

 If there is a good day 

With nothing to write about 

I am placated by normalcy 

And feel this feeling is nothing 

To write home about .

Or hear about. 

Maybe tomorrow's drama

Will lend itself to an insight

I so desperately need

Or a realization that

Maybe I am right where I am 

Suppose to be.